You find authentic intimacy in your time with God. You go to your secret place to tell God your secrets. He loves hearing from you in good, bad, stressful, peaceful, and all other times. He values the intimacy that you allow.
Authenticity in your relationship with God is what He has always wanted. True intimacy can't be rushed. It needs times to grow and develop. Your creator wants a real relationship with you. Allow Him to be God and lead the way to the best relationship you will ever have.
There are good secrets and bad secrets. Band secrets can destroy lives. They are put into place by Satan to destroy authenticity. God wants only good secrets. His secrets lead to authenticity , transparency, and intimacy. When your life aligns like that the exterior matches the interior life.
Bad secrets lead to sin, iniquity, and transgression. They can be transformed into good secrets through the forgiveness of God. He covers them with His forgiveness which is eternal, so they will never again be brought up by Him.
Find your secret place with God where you can sit and hear His voice, confess sins, and build intimacy. Genuine confessions with true repentance is putting your sins on the altar. They are destroyed and the barrier between you and God disappears. This restores fellowship and joy with God. You need Him. You need the salvation that Jesus provided at His resurrection.
Job 4:12-17, Psalm 32, James 1:22-25, & 1 John 3:18-20