It is a horrible feeling to feel exiled. It is lonely. It can make you angry or bitter. It is possibly the worst thing that can happen to a person because God created us to need each other. We all bring something to the table and we all take something away. If we don't have connections with other people, then we can't ever grow as a person.
When your heart hurts it can feel like you have been exiled to brokenness. The need to cry or mourn is real. It is horrible to loose someone or several people that are special to you. Especially when the rest of the world is just moving on. They care, but not enough to stop living. They expect you to pull yourself together and be that person you were before. You have to take the time to figure out who you are now because these experiences change you. You are no longer the person you once were.
When you are alone and feel exiled it is hard to sing praises to God. You may feel like He had exiled you. When your world, heart, and mind is crumbling it is hard to even search for a place of gratitude. Accept where you are and decide where you want to go, then every day take a step toward your goal. Just don't reject God in your pain or anger.
When you rally, you can start praying sincerely and with clarity. You can start remembering all God has done for you. You can start feeling His comfort. In time you may discover joy in your heart. Take the time to mourn, but find time in the stillness for God to speak to your soul. You don't have to live exiled, abandoned, or in heart break forever. Your memories don't have to hurt forever. You can find new connections and joy again.
Psalm 137
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